25-12-2018, 01:09 PM
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Re: I've had my chest x-ray
A breakthrough (possibly) in my illness.
Last night I was woken up by a severe pain in both my legs and back. Think the worst pain ever. I tried to raise myself but this took at least 20 minutes. I finally managed to reach the kitchen - which is where I keep my Oramorph. The pain was intense, excruciating I can still feel strong remnants of it all.The Oramorph seemed to do its job because somehow I got back to sleep but I took a lot of it. It reminded me of the pain I got with my first cancer (Hodgkin's Lymphoma) both in its length and intensity.
Then I thought: what if they've been treating me for the wrong type of cancer: Non Hodgkins versus Hodgkins...could this really be the solution.
The pain I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy and perhaps they'd been treating me for the wrong type of cancer all along.
Food for thought and it's put a twist on my day - I was going to see a couple of people but I was so scared (still am) that I don't think I'm up to it. I don't think I know what to do - this was no febrile state, nor anything I'd come against my body before.
I'm beginning to think in terms of demons being real because, during those states, nothing else makes sense.
But I'm going ton speak to one of the doctors from Ward 8 who won't have a clue about what it is. They ask you to rate pain on a 1 out of 10 level and mine was a 10, probably a 4 by now.