Feelings during Covid -19
I imagine there are many people who feel like I do, going through all sorts of emotions
I feel really angry that no one is going to pay for all this. It really angers me that the Chinese Government tried to cover it up. Perhaps it needn't have got so bad if they had spoken up instead of trying to shut that poor doctor up who was trying to alert us all, rest his soul.
When I hear of mass graves being dug, people not being able to say goodbye to their loved ones etc it just makes me feel so cross.
I don't understand why crematoriums can't hold a service outside of the building in the open air. As long as people are distanced from each other why is that any different from being allowed to go out to exercise for an hour. At least people would be able to pay their respects and say goodbye to their loved ones. It seems very cruel. I cannot imagine how I would have felt had I not being able to say goodbye to my Mum and our beautiful Julia.
I feel a sense of happiness that I'm alive and so far are all my friends and family, I'm praying that this continues.
I feel sad that no one can hug their loved ones, I'm finding this so hard as I am a serial hugger, I love to give and recieve hugs. My Dad and I are doing elbows, thats our way of displaying our affection right now.
I feel appreciation when I go for my daily walk that I can at least leave the house and I also appreciate the flowers and nature much more than I usually do.
I feel grateful for the carers, NHS staff, shop assistants, bin men, all the people who have to put their lives on the line for us. I'm humbled.
I feel disgust when I see comments on the internet that some were actually laughing that our Prime Minister caught Covid-19, even some going as far as to say they hoped he died.
I feel overwhelmed when communities clap for our front line workers, especially the first week, that was something else.
I feel fear if I cough because of a tickle in my throat.
I feel panic if someone gets too close, I even put my hand out to say stop, don't come too near.
I feel joy when I talk to my friends and family on the phone yet I feel sad at the same time because I want to be with them.
I feel guilty if I am enjoying some me time, I'm normally such a busy social butterfly yet I'm finding myself liking not doing anything sometimes and just doing exactly what I want to do. hmmm, somehow it doesn't seem right.
I keep trying to feel positive that life won't always be like this and of course I'm just getting on with things like everyone else simply because we have to.
So as you can see, I'm going through so many emotions during these fraught and scary times.
This post isn't about me, its about that I think it does us good sometimes to get down how we are feeling so I thought I'd start this thread so people can share their feelings...............if you want to of course, but I hope you will share your feelings too.
Stay safe