Re: Mark's Poems & Prose
Her Visit
She arrived wet and weary - the weather so dreary
I was late again - occupying my time so selfishly
Mile after mile she had travelled so far in the rain
And just a mile and a bit I fell victim to the strain
Pathetic and worse I call it - my behaviour stinks
Sometimes I push our relationship to the absolute brink
To live alone for so long and then to share is a physical and mental blow
So used to thinking of just one and no thought for another - the wrong seed to sow
But maybe I need to reconsider how things are now between us
Do I really want to go through life alone and friendless
Nevermind a lover too boot
Surely time for consideration to take root
She has gone back home to her pets and commitments
I stare at the screen and wonder about the visit and entertainments
They were good, healthy, stimulating and sweet
Did they really happen and was I discrete?
Did I treat her well enough throughout
I know I raised my voice in a shout
That made her jump like a frightened child
I was ashamed to act so wild
My nature is not a loving tactile one
It is hard, shaped by the past and what has been done
To change now is asking for too much in all honesty
I will try my best but I have to be true to me
All trees must bend in the wind to survive
At least my blood flows and I am alive
It is enough maybe as it is for one and all
Over this last hurdle though I must not fall