Re: I've had my chest x-ray
I think walking around the gardens (they are pretty large) would exhaust me too much.
I had started to feel my energy levels go up a bit before my hospital stay but now they're back down to where they were. Sad to say, but my favourite time of day is now between 8:30 and 9 at night when I can think about sleep although last night I had a nightmare.
I don't manage well with sleep and illness especially when I'm in hospital. In 2016 I kept trying to run away but I was delirious and didn't know where I was going; I often ended up in a different part of the hospital.
Once, I was convinced that this nurse was going to kill me with a gun fitted with a silencer (this was 7am) that I made it out of the hospital grounds and onto the main road, flagging down bus drivers, car drivers screaming, "He's got a gun!"
A few of the nurses from the ward were at the bus stop and a doctor who was going to work got hold of me but it was half an hour before they could calm me down, persuade me that no-one was after me.
Afterwards I was sectioned for my own good and was strictly monitored with people following me wherever I went and a security chap outside my door at night. That is what delirium did to me, it wasn't part of the cancer but the cancer definitely caused it.
The section only lasted 9 days while they found a suitable anti-psychotic to calm me down. And then I got better, was discharged a couple of weeks later. But I had been in hospital for nearly 3 months.
I think that's what's making this cancer so hard to take: I was beating Hodgkin's Lymphoma, was in remission, and then I get a whole new cancer unrelated to the first, one which is incurable.