07-11-2015, 09:10 PM
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I start Chemotherapy on Monday
I have beaten cancer twice in my life.They say "third time lucky", but I am not so sure.
I was again diagnosed with breast cancer again last week. They thought it had gone, I had convinced myself it had gone... But, alas it had not.
It is stage 3 and the doctors have given me the positive prognosis that if I follow the treatment plan, I have a "good chance".
The last twice I was diagnosed I was so scared and prayed that I would survive. Thankfully I did.
When I got home on Monday from my diagnosis, I didn't feel anything.
Now I don't have anyone who depends on me, my daughter has her own children and yes I did want to be around when they grow up to be adults, but we can't have everything we want.
God has his plan for me, and what will be will be.
After the first round of Chemo, they want to do a double mastectomy.
I'll take everything they suggest and we will see what happens. Maybe I'll beat it again, maybe I won't.
It sounds strange, but I am at peace. I am alive today, sitting here smoking my cigarette and drinking my wine.
As Lena Martell sang, "One Day At A Time, Sweet Jesus".
I have decided not to tell anybody that I know "in person". My brother lives in the states and my family have enough going on that they don't need to be bothered with my problems.
If things get "serious" then I will tell them, but until I have to I will keep it to myself.
That maybe sounds strange to some people, but it makes sense for me.
Sorry to post another depressing subject, but I thought it only right to let you know what is happening and why I may not post as much for a while.
Also, because you don't know who I am in the "real world", I feel I can be 100% honest with you. I can tell you guys anything and that helps a lot.
God bless you all.
-Susan.
07-11-2015, 09:22 PM
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Susan I know you must be feeling awful right now,but just think youve beaten it twice already and I agree totally with your outlook as in what will be will be...as you may or may not know I am going through chemo for Breast cancer currently atm if you ever feel like a chat about anything at all just PM me anytime ....sending you big hugs ,I know you will be strong
07-11-2015, 09:26 PM
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Susan .. all the best and no it doesn't sound strange to not tell anyone 'in person'.Nor than you can, or prefer, to tell us instead .... some of my closest confidantes have been online friends. I know what you mean.
We'll all be routing for you. Good Luck... and raise a glass in a toast to yourself.
XX
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