Do you think about Old Age?
When I was 50, I never thought even once about what it might be like when I turned 75. Even up to 60 years old, I never once considered how I would feel in my 70.s and 80.s....
What a blow when I finally realized my age. You think you are never going to get there, then all of a sudden, you say to yourself, H***, I may only live another 5 years or so.
It is a little disturbing to say the least. We never know what hardships, what diseases, or problems and challenges we are going to have when we get in our 70s and 80s....
I can't do my own housework now, and haven't been able to since I became 70. I have to hire a housekeeper to come in every two weeks and give it a good clean.
Sometimes I am so tired, I can hardly drag my bones into the shower. I have heard that old people don't want to take a bath or shower. I hope to God, I can keep myself showering and never let it get the best of me, but you see old ladies and men in nursing homes all the time, and they have to have someone help them bath...
I had to have help with bathing for a couple weeks each time I had my cancer operations as I was so sick and so weak, I couldn't do it without help. I am ok now, but I know what it is like to not be able to do it.....
In another 4 years I am going to be 80, can you imagine !!!
I have no idea what that is going to be like. It is just too much for my little brain to comprehend.......I bet it is going to be hard and I bet I get very confused.....
Even now, I have forgotten to do things that I knew how to do for years, I look at something and have no idea how to do it.....I have to sit down and reallty concentrate.....
I never let myself get too fat, I walk a lot, every day......I don't want to be too far over weight, but I seem to have about 15 lbs now, that I shouldn't have......
I don't want to eat meat anymore. Never thought that would ever happen to me, I loved my steak and roast beef.
Do you ever look ahead and wonder what you will be like. Do you ever get scared or worry that you might end up in a nursing home, and maybe abused or something?
I really, deep down, have not yet learned to cope with old age. I just don't seem to accept it. I flirt with younger man, I go out with a few men, that would love it if I would marry them, but I just want to date and have fun. I do everything I did when I was 65, yet I am 11 years older now.....and I don't feel I look that old, but maybe I am blind.
Rant over.......care to share???