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Ffosse, I am sure you feel dreadful but try to keep fighting your illness because it is often the treatments, rather than the cancer, that make you feel so bad & if you can be brave with them, you still have a chance!
The staff on the HDU will look after your physical needs, so you need to be mentally strong in your determination to beat cancer.
I hope you will feel better soon.